Is It My Path, Yaa Allah?

Bismillahirrahmannirrahim...

The hope was started in the semester break last 2010. I spent the whole holiday at home with my family. In one of the night, I accidentally watched one of television series movie, the title is "Lie to Me". That movie tells about one of science in revealing people's lies called micro expressions. In the first time I watched the episode, I just fell in love with that movie, I'm still watching the movie until now, FYI, I also own the DVDs.
By the time I was watching the movie, I've became curious about the science of micro expressions and detecting lies, so for that reason I searched about it in the internet. I found it!! I searched and downloaded all or the information about it and since then, I've been learning about it.
Learning about that science is so interesting, and it is true that we can learn to detect lies in people. I can't tell the whole information or knowledge that I've been learning to you in this Blog (at least now), but if you are interested in this science, just search it in the internet.
But, by the time goes, with my knowledge keeps increasing, my mind becomes wider. I have a plan that I want to continue my study abroad. Before this time, I had no idea about what major I should take in Master degree, nut know I know what field that is very suitable not only with the field that I'm majoring now, but also suitable with my hobby. That field is Forensic Linguistics!!!
In Forensic Linguistics, I know that I can apply the knowledge that I've been learning. In this field, we will learn how to analyze linguistics data particularly in law and criminal data. I can apply all the knowledge of Linguistics such as Pragmatics, Sociolinguistics, Semantics, and so forth to analyze the data. And the most important is that in Forensic Linguistics, I can reveal the truths. That is the primary reason.
The Forensic Linguistics and the science of detecting lies are very much connected, and they are all the science of revealing truth. I have to promise myself that I will learn as much as I can to master those sciences. I will do it, I will reach my plan, and I will reveal the truth in this earth surface until beyond the sea.

Unknown

Let I live in this world of mine, only mine…

Even if it it’d sound beyond selfish,

But in this one world only, I can live my life, the life that I want

I can pick my head up while I’m walking in the street,

I can smile in every second I want and every place I stand

I can be the way I am without even think of people’s thoughts,

Yes, I am maybe selfish or I am very pity,

But is that not too much just for I can feel love and be loved?

Let’s just it is answered by unthinking live…

Unbroken Dust

Apa yang kau lakukan debu?

Kau telah kupaksa pergi, halus ataupun keras, dan kaupun pergi..

Tapi apa yang kau lakukan disini?

Melekat dan tumbuh terus jika ku tak bergerak,

Kenpa hanya kau yang tak bisa ku singkirkan?

Kenapa hanya kau yang tak bisa ku cegah tuk kembali?

Aku bisa mencegah angin dan air,

Mereka tak akan ada bila ku tak mau, tapi kau?

Apa yang kau ingin dariku?

Kau sudah ambil detakku,

Kau sudah ambil akalku,

Bahkan kaupun telah ambil air di mataku,

Apalagi yang kau mau?

Kau tau aku tak kan mudah menyerah darimu,

Sesering apapun kau datang,

Sesering itu pula ku kan singkirkanmu,

Tapi kau memang debu,

Karena ku tak kuasa mencegahmu…

Fair or not fair

Saat bertanya apa adil itu ada,
Semua pasti menjawab,
“ada, adil itu ada pada saatnya nanti,”
Kapan?
Saat dikatakan bahwa adil itu bukan sama rata sama rasa,
Tapi adil itu adalah dapat apa yang kita butuhkan,
Lalu bagaimana adil dalam cinta?
Disaat satu orang mencintai, apakah dia juga pati akan dicintai?
Adilkah itu namanya?
Semua bilang bahwa semua orang pernah mencintai,
Tapi apakah semua orang pernah dicintai?
Disaat yang satu teluh beribu kali beda mencintai dan dicintai,
Orang yang lain belum sekalipun mencintai apalagi dicintai,
Tapi telah disuratkan bahwa setiap manusia telah miliki jodohnya,
Jodoh hidupnya, jodoh matinya,
Memang haruskah ku menunggu adil itu datang?

what I got from "The Lottery"

The Tradition Shirley Jackson through “The Lottery” gives a description of how life could be so confusing or maybe we can say so mean and immoral. This story tells about one of the activities usually done by the people in one village, there is the lottery. The lottery in this village had been done in June 27th. It seems to be a tradition for the people in that village, because they could not avoid the lottery and each family must have their draw. The situation happened in the story is one of the implementation of the lottery activities. In the morning of June 27th, everybody gathered in the square, and they were all ready for the lottery. After did some steps, one of the families is chosen, there was the Hutchinsons. And from five members of the family, the mother, Tessie Hutchinson is chosen to face the tradition. And finally, everybody in the village; included her husband and children, took some stones and were starting to throw her with the stones, did not care to Tessie’s scream. Before we read the whole story, we would not know that the story is so scary and will end like that. It all because the setting described by Shirley which shows fun and cheerful situation. There are at least three kinds of setting found in this story; place, time, and situation. Shirley described the cheerful situation which is possible in the day of June 27th. “The morning of June 27th was clear and sunny, with the fresh warmth of full-summer day; the flowers were blossoming profusely and the grass was richly green…” From this first sentence, we could possibly imagine that the story would tell about some cheerful and fun story. Then Shirley continued to describe the place where the story took place. “The people of the village began to gather in the square, between the post office and the bank…” Maybe there will be some confusion about the choice of place setting where the lottery took place. Usually, when there were some events or activities where people gather together in one place, it could be done in place like saloon bar, but Shirley chose the square between the post office and the bank. And after we read the whole story, we know why Shirley chose that place, it is because that was not a usual lottery, there would be needed a large place. The time setting chosen is “around ten o’clock…” In the usual situation, in summer day around that time, people are usually still preparing for their activities that day. But in this story, the people are already prepared for the lottery. “The children assembled first, of course. School was recently over for the summer, and the feeling of liberty sat uneasily on most of them…” In this situation, it is described that the children were very happy because the school was over and they were in holiday. It is also shown from the describing in the next sentence, “The girls stood aside, talking among themselves, looking over their shoulders at the boys…”, the situations above clearly show a very relaxed and fun condition. The relaxed situation was not only described around the children, but also the adults, “Soon the men began to gather… They stood together… and their jokes were quiet and they smiled rather than laughed.” Also the women, “The women, wearing faded house dresses and sweaters… They greeted one another and exchanged bits of gossip as they went to join their husbands.” But the relaxed and fun summer situation changed when the lottery was starting to begin, it is when Mr. Summers came out with the lottery black box. “When he arrived in the square, carrying the black wooden box, there was a murmur of conversation among the villagers…” This setting of situation shows us how they really did not like the situation when the lottery was starting, there were a feeling of anxiety among the people there. And it kept continue, “The villagers kept their distance, leaving a space between themselves and the stool…” It makes sure that no one in the village likes in doing the lottery, but they had to.

symbolism in "The Rocking Horse Winner" based on my interpretation

Search of Luck Generally, in The Rocking-Horse Winner, D.H. Lawrence brought a describing of how some people can not satisfy of what they already have. They always want more and more which sometimes they do not know when they have to stop until at the end they have to face some consequences. The story tells about how a boy, named Paul, tried to prove to his mother that he is a lucky boy. It is started when Paul asked his mother about luck, and when the mother answered that they were an unlucky family. His desire to prove that he is lucky is actually because he felt that his mother did not believe of what he said that he is a lucky person. Paul’s family is a family who lives in style, but that is actually the problem in the family. The first symbol appeared in the story is “eye” in sentence, “Only she herself, and her children themselves, knew it was not so. They read it in each other’s eyes.” From this sentence, the “eyes” can symbolize of unspeakable words and the distance in Paul’s family members. If we have something to say, we can directly say it, moreover to people who is close to us, we will not find it difficult to say anything. But in Paul’s family, it seems to be very difficult in saying something, but they seem already knew about what each person wants to say just by looking in each eye. The second symbol found is “whispering” in the house. In the story, the children could hear things in their house whispered, “There must be more money! There must be more money! There must be more money!” In fact, it is very impossible for non-living things could whisper something, but the children heard it. This actually symbolizes the feeling of how they were in pressure to think about getting more money to keep their life in style. The pressure and responsibility to get money are actually the parents’ job, but the situation affects the children inside their minds and feelings. The other symbol is the “rocking horse”. Ii is only a usual rocking horse, a toy, made from wood with its champing head. But the thing that makes it interesting is that how Paul could communicate with the rocking horse. In his effort to prove that he is a lucky boy, he was riding his horse, once he said to the rocking horse, “Now take me to where there is luck!” then he always rode his rocking horse as it is a real horse, in a very furious ride. This may symbolize how the pressure of getting more money which is shown in the parents got into Paul. Paul was the only one who could speak to the rocking horse, by riding it, he could guess which horse would win the horse racing then he can win the money. And finally, because he was too much in pushing himself, he died when he was riding his rocking horse at the end.

comentary writing of prose "The Rocking Horse Winner"

The Boy and the Unspoken Phrase How is it possible for a rocking-horse to be a winner? It is possible in the short story entitle The Rocking-Horse Winner by D.H. Lawrence. The title of this story brings out readers’ imagination to picture a rocking-horse; a toy made from wood, looks like a mini horse, and usually boys can ride on its saddle. When we read The Rocking-Horse Winner, we can straightly think about the characters that would be introduced in the story, there might be character of children in it. As the family in general, there are father, mother, children, sometimes other member of the family, and the housekeeper. In The Rocking-Horse Winner, we are introduced to at least five characters in the story; there are Paul the boy, Uncle Oscar, Bassett the young gardener, the mother, and Joan the sister. The major character is Paul the boy, while the others are minor characters. The interesting thing from Lawrence’s way to describe the characters is not focus in the physical appearance, but he describes the characters from their inner thought, actions, and dialogue. When the story begins, Lawrence introduced the readers to a life that characters are going through. Lawrence describes the life of Paul’s family. This family lives in an expensive lifestyle but there was never enough money to support all things. The thing that becomes the focus of this story starts when Paul asks his mother about what is happening in the family, and the mother rises a word “unlucky” as the thing which is caused that situations. This is the part where Paul comes as the center of the story. Paul is the major character in the story. The story follows all his thought, actions, and every word he says. Lawrence does not describe the character of Paul physically, but he describes Paul from his dialogue with other characters, his thought, and other characters’ thought about him. From Paul’s first dialogue with his mother, he appears as a boy who is smart and wants to know a lot. It is shown by question after question given by Paul to her mother which are questioning about a thing that disturb him in his mind. He seems as a smart boy because he can think of problem that his family is going through and he also thinks about what he can do to solve the problem. The problem in his family is about luck and money. The parents are not gain a lot of money to support their expensive tastes and they also need more money to support their children who are growing up and have to go to school. It is described in the story that the relationship between the mother and her children are not too close as the relationship of mother and children which is supposed to. It is shown from the words used by Paul to his mother, which seem cold and brief, like in these dialogue, “Where did you get to?” asked the mother. “Where I wanted to go,” Paul flared back at her. The mother feels that the children look at her coldly, as if they blame her for every unlucky thing that happens in the family. The mother herself was a beautiful woman; at least that is what she thinks. From what Lawrence describes, we can see that she is a hard-working woman because she tried and tried so much things even she could not find anything successful and she believes in herself that she can do something right. But in the other hand, she can not manage what she has because she still has expensive tastes of lifestyle. Paul looks like has closer relationship with his uncle instead of his mother. It is shown from the dialogue between the uncle and Paul which seem very intimate which can be seen when in one time, Uncle Oscar greets Paul, “Hello, you young jockey! Riding a winner?”. It also can be seen from the choice of words which look more relax and the dialogue is longer, which conclude that Paul is open to his uncle, as is shown in these dialogue, “Yes I am. But it’s between you and me, uncle. Honour bright?” said Paul. “Honour bright all right, son!” said Uncle Oscar. Uncle Oscar himself seems as a nice person because he knows how to place himself in different situations. When he is with Paul’s mother, he acts like the adult is supposed to, but when he is with his nephew; he seems to be more friendly and fun. The other relationship is that between Paul and the gardener, Bassett. Paul seems to trust Bassett so much, Basset looks like a friend instead of a gardener. It is shown from how Paul who partners with Bassett in betting for horse racing and Paul also trusts Bassett of keeping the money. From the story, Bassett looks like a young man that has spirit because he always says his words spiritedly, and he also a polite young man. It is shown when he speaks to Uncle Oscar, “If Master Paul offers you to be partners, sir, I would, if I were you: if you’ll excuse me.” The last two relationships are between Paul and his elder sister, Joan, and his nurse. Actually, the relationships here are not described too much because of a few dialogues are existed between the characters. But from the describing, we can see that Paul and Joan are close, but not too close. It is shown from the words of Joan, which seem very understand Paul’s behavior, “He’s always riding like that! I wish he’d leave off!” D.H. Lawrence’s The Rocking-Horse Winner is a very unique short story which offers us, the readers, about a life that can be happened in everywhere and to anybody. The describing of characters gives us a new view of how the author can describe the characters not only in the physical appearance, but also in their thought, actions, even from other characters’ thought.